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I find it difficult as well but you need to focus on a goal. Thankfully I have one at the moment I can tangibly chip away at. That keeps me grounded because I can say "my feelings don't matter right now, I need to to this thing" and it's okay for a while.
>I basically isolated myself from others
Don't do this. If you hate everyone around you just hang out with strangers at least. Force yourself to go outside and socialize at least a little bit.
Going outside and getting some fun form of exercise really helps even if you think it won't.
>more has made me want to die and end it all. I feel sad and angry, and I don't know how to deal with these feelings.
A lot of people feel like this. I think the more you realize how fucked everything is the more likely it will happen to you. Take it day by day, and like I said talk to people.