/dead/ - dead

I don't know, I've failed… more than 3 times by now, so maybe I'm not the best guy to give you advice.

But if I was going to do it again, I think that what I would do is save money and use nembutal, if I could find it. It seems humane and reliable, and is the veterinary standard. I tried partial suspension hanging more than once, but it took longer to pass out than people say, so I ended up just hurting my neck. Then I tried fentanyl, which I took by snorting it, but I passed fast out before I could snort all of it and ended up waking up with horrible withdrawals and pneumonia. Then, finally, I tried a gun but I got incredibly neurotic about the slim possibility that I could survive - living on after that with a huge whole in my head would be horrible.

Anyway, frankly, more importantly than any of that, what do you do? I've realized, since my own failures, that the psychological embrace of death, and desire for death, is sort of a valuable tool. Tell us about yourself, my friend. Maybe you can do something better than just dying in shame.

>>2768
>Anyway, frankly, more importantly than any of that, what do you do?
And, more generally, I'll add to that: who are you?

>>2767 (OP)
NO DON'T DO IT IDIOT.
YOU WILL STAY ALIVE OR ELSE

I was about to post the suicide manual pdf but hell no

don't do it dude

i love you

i had an ex-gf attempt suicide while in the relationship and that fucking wrecked me so much

anon there has to be someone in your life that cares, even your cat or the mailman or whatever the fuck

you matter anon

>>2768
First time was after the death of my friends. When i was with them, I didn't focus on things that were supposed to bother me, but after theyve gone I found myself in a poor state. No skills, no job, no oportunity to have any future but the one my parents got. Long story short they remained living with their parents, and now we are staying with both families. It's getting noisy and irritating, not taking in account I can do nothing without them knowing it. They check all over my social media, my messangers, my bag, etc. When they did it for the first time they found some chats I would't really show to anyone, second phone number, and cigarettes. Since that day they check everything of mine and see my location no matter where I walk.
I'd love to move out taking in account I'm a grown ass who should have done it already, but I really cannot find a job (due both stupidity and university) and barely have money. My money and laptop are all I have from things my parents don't check all over.
Actually never wanted to drink or use drugs, but tried self harm and suicide thing. The only thing that helps so far are cigarettes, but I try not to smoke much anyway.
They make me go to uni and learn chinese as an additional language, which (both) I hate. Otherwise, they say, I'll have to work for family.
That's it i guess

>>2773
How good are you at Chinese?

>>2774
Absolutely terrible

>>2775
Ah, well get better at it so you can make propaganda for us.
Or at least translate propaganda for us into English, maybe the Chinese don't need to be propagandized to that much.

One thing I can tell:
Painless death does not exist lol

Are you still here?