>>60 (OP)I genuinely believe that the modern trend to push for the gender indentity is a ideological crusade. Im not sure about the end goal here but definitely some groups have some special goals. (Frankfurt School, the wealthy class, some religious fanatics.)
Were going through a mad period where the true rulers pushing for total control of people. and gender identity is one of the many tools they use to sow division to ease control. In your personal case I feel sorry if you feel bad, you may be true to yourself or got tricked by the gender identity industry, regardless, I wish you well.