/R9K/ - Robot - 9000

As a 33-year-old virgin man, I've never seriously pursued romantic or sexual relationships largely due to a total lack of self-esteem and I've managed to fuck up any opportunity where a woman may have been interested in me due to my terrible anxiety and awkwardness so now I feel almost alien as a man in his 30s who's never really been on a date or even kissed a woman. I worry that if I ever did date a woman she'd think I was weird or an incel or some shit.
I don't know, posting here solely because I don't feel comfortable posting it anywhere else.