/gulag/ - gulag

I do not really have much to suggest, you can also realize that "partying" is not only TikTok slop and whore culture. There are options out there from folk to demotic, raves, hell even taking a bmx or skateboard and fuarrrking up all of your body's skin trying to do cool soykaf is a party in some sense.

As for the prisoner feeling, there is a good way to make an effort and test the waters. I believe the best option would be to live with someone else if you are not doing that already. Being in the constant company of someone else is a big change and the change might be better than what you currently experience.

There is no coping in life. People on the outside watch the greener grass on the other side and they self jerk by coining garbage terms like coping. Legitimately, everyone copes to some extent. That's life. This is all byproduct of "perfect heroic" culture that convinces people that there is a perfect state that they can reach, the same way that prophets ascend to Heaven, or the way that heroes in LOTR can rest forever after defeating Sauron.

Life isn't like that. I know people that won European competitions and the next day they had to wake up and absolutely nothing had changed in their day to day experience.