>>3030i feel like visual snow serves as a reminder that we are interpreting the world through the limitations of the flesh and thus are unable to fully grasp the state of the world outside us. i find comfort in being able to distance mental existence from the chaos of external reality. I am however trying to recover from the argument that if we really were simply the experience of physical reality with no control over it we would be unable to posit the question as such but i refuse to accept a direct form of control as it runs so contrary to my own experience.
Rambling aside a shitton of psychedelics certainly hasnt grounded me in reality and has given me visual snow so i wouldnt recommend it for that. But theyve led me to find comfort in the absurdity of existence (after fucking me up for quite a while), so thats a huge plus and could be very useful in your case if you have similar experiences. All psys are pretty similar in what they can do for you and its really just a matter of preference which one
dissociatives made me decide to never kill myself so id also recommend them as a good last resort for that but they do, well, cause dissociation. they also can be pretty addictive unlike psys