Yeah, no. Cobain style is my backup. Even shotgun to the head, there's supposedly like a 1% failure rate, and I seem to have an insane talent for fucking up to the point where I'm genuinely concerned I could somehow manage to be the 1% in that statistic even if I do everything right.
That and it looks
painful - even if I know it's not supposed to be
painful, that doesn't change how my brain visualizes it when I'm overthinking it. Switched to poison as the first choice, it's just a mediocre poison - it'd be nice to be able to get, like, the standard of poisons that dogs get, at least. Can't get everything, though!
I feel like the thing with poor people committing suicide is kind of a "damned if you do, damned if you don't" deal. Like, yeah, you'd run a high risk of it resulting in a ton of the poorest people dying, but even if you didn't have nice ways to die, you'd still have a large population of people who would jump at the opportunity if euthanasia was available and might readily just blow their brains out anyway without it.
Even under current conditions, it ends up being kind of a hostage situation. I think the ultimate question is whether or not this situation is realistically going to end before a few million more people are dragged through it, and to me it doesn't seem likely that it will. The situation right now just sees people murdered in the streets, on subways, etc. I feel like if we straight up came around to having open death squads, people still wouldn't say "enough, ok, we can give all these empty high-rises in NYC to the homeless population for free, we can make sure everybody has access to work and affordable housing," they'd probably just seethe about the death squads and keep telling rightfully-miserable people to call 988 while they're dragged through life waiting to get beaten to death. The nefarious factor is present in all scenarios.>>2614